And I’m wide awake. This would be absolutely magnificent if I was with some friends, but alas, I’m sitting half-naked on my couch downstairs watching TV by myself. Mind wandering, nothing to do but veg out and sit on the computer. It has now been 3 days since I have completed my junior year of high school, and now life is beginning to spread her legs for me. This is causing quite a crisis for me. Part of me wants to plunge in and take life for a ride, but part of me wants to retreat to a small corner with some coffee and a pillow, and cry myself to sleep. What am I to do with this life of mine? A young teenage boy with confidence issues, and the whole world is looking. Knowing that I have barely begun this journey is the scariest part for me. I feel like I’ve already experienced so much, gone through so many ups and downs, I feel like I’m ready to lie down for that long nap.

My sleeping schedule is too messed up. Wake up, fall asleep in the early afternoon, don’t go to sleep till 3 in the morning, repeat.